First of all, the surgery WORKED!
I can now insert tampons/ fingers/ dilators into myself without experiencing the incredible excruciating pain I used to experience at the vestibular region. I do still tense up, because my brain expects the pain, but hopefully over time that will go away. I also do still have twinges of pain where the suture line is, but that's what dilator therapy will help with.
I now have to do dilator therapy for a minimum of three months (10 minutes every night). At first I was really hating it, but then I decided to experiment with doing it while in the bath. This was much more comfortable (I have to check with the doctor to see whether it is okay). More importantly, as I inserted the dilator in and out, I actually FELT PLEASURE. Like, I may have the beginning of an inkling about what this whole sex thing is all about, and what it's supposed to feel like. This is incredibly exciting.
5 comments:
so happy for you!!! thanks, as always, for your incredibly honesty on this blog.
Yes it is exciting!! --YCF
So so so happy excited for you!!
mazel tov! and thank you!
have you tried cool cones for dilators? (www.coolwatercones.com) soooo much more comfortable.
i'm headed for a partial in a few weeks, so your recovery posts are very very helpful - though i'm hoping for a much lighter ride.
sounds like it's time for a new blog name - 'happy jewish girl', perhaps?!
all best, s
wow so exciting! keep us updated!
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